My Underworld Moment

So I wanted to start this blog by showing a little cartoon about what I think of when I hear "the end of the world". I'm sure we've all heard the famous story of Nero playing the fiddle as Rome burned and that is what I think of. Sometimes I think Nero was insane but perhaps it wouldn't be such a bad way to go. Just like on the movie Titanic, Nero embraced his situation and they almost seemed like they went into a state of oblivion and just enjoyed themselves. Not so bad, huh?  

So now I'll try to come up with a time that I had an "Underworld Moment". I truly do believe that we all have our demons that we battle every day. Some demons might not be so hard to deal with but others are awful! I don't really know if I've ever had an underworld moment to tell the truth. It's kind of difficult to have demons when you're only 18 years old but there is one regret that I have that periodically comes back up in my everyday life.

When I was 10 my Grammy died. My mom thought I was too young to be in the hospital when Grammy was on life support so I actually didn't get to see her for about 3 weeks before she actually died. I often look back on that time and wish I had made the effort to ask my mom to take me to see Grammy. I remember the day my family came home, I was so excited. I thought my Grammy was coming home too. Unfortunately I had to have the nonbeliever episode before I would accept the truth and I'm sure that didn't help my family at all.

So now you're asking how this comes back up in my every day life. Well my younger cousin that I mentioned in a previous blog has been placed on life support more than once at the hospital she has been in for over a year now. I always feel like I should be in Ohio but it's hard to leave college and head to Ohio on the broke bank account of a student. If something happened to Kenna before I could get to her, I would have to add another demon to my list but we're all hoping and praying that she'll continue to fight.